If you were able to see my status update on Facebook...yesterday, you would have seen the following status report...
"Leslie has been crying all day because she sent her little girl off to kindergarten."
So...yesterday was the big day. The day I have been dreading since Big Sis was born. The day she would be gone to school...gone all day (yes kindergarten here is all freaking day!), away from my constant influence (and control?), into the cold cruel world!!!
I put her on the bus with a big squeeze and a "Have a wonderful day!!!" She said, "Bye Mom" and like a big kid, found a seat on the bus and rode away. I remained calm until the bus turned the corner. Then I lost it.
I then turned into the kind of crazy mom I swore I would never be. So worried about her getting lost in the shuffle was I that...I jumped into my car...drove to the school...waited for the school buses to arrive...got out of the car...found Big Sis' bus...and watched as she got off the bus and got into the line of Kindergartners who would be escorted to their classes.
As I drove home, I sobbed again...called my mom...sobbed some more...stayed in the car until I got myself together. When my husband gave me a hug...I lost it again.
I kept myself busy the rest of the day until it was time to go back to the bus stop again and wait for Big Sis.
How was her day??? Awesome. She loved every minute of it.
As she described her day, I couldn't help but wonder what has happened to the past five years.